We’ve just had President’s Day, so this seems kind of appropriate. But last week I said I was afraid I was going to Emotionally Eat, and probably binge, because I was upset. And I did. Kind of.
I’m not going to go into the reasons this happened. It’s very personal and difficult for me, so don’t ask. But on Thursday last week, when I was feeling bluer than cheese, I had Pizza Sandwiches and watched a movie. I cooked up a couple mini frozen pizzas, put butter on bread, parmesan cheese on the pizza, and made sandwiches. This has been my favorite depression binge food for 30 years. It’s cheap, full of flavor, and carbohydrates. By Friday, I was back on the program. I wallowed in Self Pity, then started moving forward.
I knew it was going to happen. I’ve been living with me for 64 years. I pretty much know how I’m going to react to things. One of the things that surprised me, was I didn’t get ice cream for dessert.
Because I’m under stress, I have had some other side effects. First, my nerves are shot. I’m on edge constantly. Secondly, I haven’t had a BM for 4 days. Tomorrow I will take a laxative. My sleep is messed up. And we can’t get melatonin here in Scotland. So I’ve had some keto friendly adult beverages before I go to bed. The problem with those is they are loaded with calories. And I don’t want to become dependent on anything.
This is only temporary, but it will be an extended temporary. These things happen in life. I had the good fortune of knowing what was coming so I could prepare for it a bit. I don’t know what I would have done had I been blindsided. I encourage you to prepare for emotional emergencies, just like physical ones. Think ahead about how you will feel, and how you will behave. Write it down.
And, this one may cost me readers, pray about it. God wants to hear the desires and concerns of your heart. I know He is with me through this time. He will hold my heart as well as my hand. And He will do that for you, too. Hard times come. That’s a fact. Tough people are strong and courageous. And that does not mean they aren’t scared spitless.
So, for the reasons above, I haven’t lost any weight this week. But I’m back on my program, watching my carbs and calories closely. If you’re going through a tough time, I feel your pain. Feel free to drop me a note and tell me about it.
Next week, I’ll tell you about how things are going getting ready for my 2021 Keto Diet Friendly Garden.